After yesterday's wonderful news, I'm still feeling the adrenaline of relief combined with the exhaustion of an emotional roller coaster ride. I still want to drape myself on things. Still haven't in public. ;) I still tear up for good reasons (and can cry on command... maybe I should be an actress?!). But I think the best new feeling I'm experiencing is confidence. I finally am starting to feel a little smidge of confidence about my health. I can't put this tumor completely out of my mind and realistically never will, but I feel like the sun is shining a bit more brightly from behind the clouds of this year I've had so far. Maybe things really will be okay...?
I took this picture in the Caribbean in 2007 (hey Lynn! woo!); it's kind of how I'm feeling
I'm not trying to jinx myself or get totally casual about my tumor (knowing it could blindside me at any time), but perhaps it doesn't have to rule my life or determine my path. Each clean MRI will get me a little more confident. And I can't wait.
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