My hiatus

I've been a bad blogger, and I sometimes feel a little guilty about it.  Truth is, when I'm not blogging, it means I'm living my life.  My tumor is not on my mind (well, it always is a TINY bit, but you know what I mean).  I'm feeling normal, and healthy.  I'm busy.  I don't have health-related things to write about (except I did get my new tooth a month ago! no more pirate!).  These are all wonderful things!

But I'm having an awful week, and will use this as a place to vent, be therapeutic.  I had been quite happy for the last few months (and longer!), since last blogging.  But within just the last week, I've hit a real rough patch. I got told at work that I'm project managing a huge 4-month long (give or take) project for my department, and it feels like pretty much the worst thing I could have been told (it's traditionally a very painful project).  The guy I'd been dating (quite happily and wonderfully) broke things off completely out of the blue, and for not a very good reason, IMO; I'm crushed, totally crushed.  And a small bump under my tongue that my dentist noticed a couple of months ago has gotten me referred to an oral surgeon tomorrow, after being told by my periodontist last week, "You don't have the markers for oral cancer, but that bump should be removed and sent off for a biopsy ASAP.  It's beyond my area of expertise.  Can you get an appointment with them ASAP?"

So I have my consultation tomorrow with an oral surgeon, and I'm sure it'll be fine.  I mean, odds are, it is fine.  It's just a bit nerve-wracking, as it's not like I haven't had remote and unlikely health things hit me before.  I still remember my original neurologist getting my first MRI results back and saying, "There's something on here, but we don't think it's a tumor."  Famous last words!  Really though, I'm not especially nervous for tomorrow's appointment, as I think it's just some stubborn tissue that grew into the space when my tooth was missing, and now it's overstaying its welcome.  Will keep you posted though...  Wish me luck!

(And apologies for the pity party.  I'm just really having a rough time right now, and feeling the saddest I have in a couple of years.  :*(  I'll turn it around soon...)