Even though my first quarterly MRI appointment isn't for a month (September 1st), I'm already starting to get a little bit nervous. I know I should be enjoying my ignorant "no news is good news" time right now, before I could potentially get bad news, but I can feel the nerves in my stomach a little.
I know why I'm feeling this way though. My eyes have been really sucking the last couple of weeks, and it has me paranoid. They're tired all the time and sometimes they don't want to focus quite like they used to, pre-surgery. I had/have pretty amazing eyesight, so these challenges are a bit frustrating. I've been doing a ton of reading and detail work at work lately and I can totally tell it's affecting my eyes. It's like they never get a break to recover, not even over the weekend, so the tiredness never ends. I'm not reading on the bus or at home but they still seem constantly overworked. Since my tumor is in the vision part of my brain, it just makes me wonder if there's anything more going on than just overuse of my eyes at work. (Like tumor growth.)
As Jeff reminded me, it's highly unlikely that my non-growing tumor (at least, before surgery) that we found randomly that wasn't giving me symptoms has started growing 2 months after surgery and is now affecting me. He is right; it's very unlikely to be growing... I'd just feel a lot better if my eyes started cooperating more. The good news is that I'm taking 3 days off from work next week to drive down the WA/OR/CA coast and I'm not only looking forward to the trip and the company but also for the relaxation for my eyes. :)
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