UGH. I have NOT had a good day. I am having a VERY bad hair day. Like, ridiculous. I've got mysterious wings behind my left ear, and chunks of my bangs won't lie flat and just stick straight out. I tried playing with the pomade, I re-wet and re-dried it, to no avail. It poofed throughout the day, and looks very 90s mom with an asymmetrical twist. And it REALLY affected me today!!
I know this whole thing sounds silly, but with my new short 'do, there is nowhere to hide when your hair doesn't cooperate. I can't put it up in a wet bun or in a ponytail; it's just there, being ugly. I've been really happy with the cut and have felt really confident up until today. But today the insecurity I had about my hair totally impacted me. I had a crappy attitude. I felt super self conscious. I avoided going to the kitchen at work so people wouldn't see me; I also avoided dropping off some files (okay, gossip magazines) with a friend for the same reason. I wore my coat at my desk, furry lined hood and all, to try and cover it up. I avoided eye contact with people. Yes, this sounds very dramatic. But I was nearly in tears! I never once felt this uncomfortable with half a bald head and a hat or headscarf on.
I've felt really good and really happy lately, but today illustrated to me that I still have some cracks, some fault lines in my confidence. And I know it sounds dramatic and unnecessary... but I didn't expect to feel quite so impacted just from having my hair look bad. Plus now I'm nervous that I won't be able to fix it up right tomorrow.
If the worst of my worries and troubles are a single bad hair day, I am one lucky lady. But man... I would never have predicted that it'd affect me so strongly like it has. Here's to hoping that I improve my hair doing skills and lighten up on myself when it doesn't go quite how I'd like it to.
MORE PICTURES!!!!! :)
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