Friends have asked me if my directional issues are getting better with time. No, they are not... I am relearning the ways to get places (so that I can remember them at a time when I'm not actually on my way there), but it takes repetition and I can still get disoriented easily enough. Yesterday I had an instance that is typical of my new always-lost lifestyle.
I was in a department store doing a little Christmas shopping, grabbed a few things, and went to the checkout line. Of course, one of the items I grabbed was missing a tag. Typical. The checkout lady asked if I would go grab another one real quick or if she should. Trying to be helpful, I said I'd go get one. There were a few people in line behind me, so I hurried off to keep them waiting as little as possible. Well, I wandered around for about a minute and couldn't find the table with the items. At all. Not even close. I barely found my way back to the checkout stand. I apologized, told the lady I get lost really easily and couldn't find the table, and asked if she would go grab one instead. (I apologized to the people in line behind me too, but they just seemed annoyed.) She walks off, goes about 30 feet in clear sight, and grabs a replacement item with a tag. And I proceed to feel like an idiot...
Honestly, I didn't really let it get to me, but I just felt silly. I've accepted my new shortcoming and am pretty much fine with it, but I wish that I could somehow get random people that don't know me to be fine with it too. Once people know about my tumor, they are so much nicer to me, I can tell (and trust me, I don't tell people about my sitch unless I actually want them to know). But I'm NOT going to advertise to random strangers in line at a department store that I have it, so instead I just ignore the annoyed looks and let it roll off my back. Everyone's brain works differently (seriously... I cannot emphasize this enough) and people cannot help the way theirs functions (or doesn't function, like my missing compass).
At least I have a really cute haircut covering up that dysfunctional brain of mine! :)
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